How was my day : 7 Jan 2024

 Achievements of the day :

• i help my mom taking care the birds
• i take care my cats faster and still on point
• i clean the kitten's eyes and give it treatment
• i take a bath earlier on afternoon
• i coloring the coloring book with my mom
• i pray 4/5 on time / happy!
• i make such a delicious instant noodle. indomie tori(?) with soft poached egg and spinach. it's so delicious
• i finish my article for wizped

my morning is not really good. my mood is bad because i can't pray on time and chose to skip it and make me angry to my self. stupid. my cats make my day happier. they really easy to handle today. i still haven't bring my cat to vet yet, sorry. the rain pour hard on afternoon and i really like it. i make really yummy noodle. last night i actualli write down the article script but i delete it and start it over before i type this journal and finally i finish it today. yeay

i will send it tomorrow and i hope i can be a writer again on wizped. happy anniversary mom and dad <3

How was my day : 6 Jan 2024

 Achievements of the day :

• i can walk iyas calmly and make him comfy. i'm so happy! it such a huge progress to make him feel comfy around me
• i make really good soup with tomato, spinach, tofu and egg
• i do one on time pray and one late 

today i dont really make a lot things to do. just my daily life. two things that make me happy today are finally iyas comfy to walk beside me to his cage and my friend on bargaining phase from her five steps of grieving. but i make such a great story that i've been deleted again hahaha

How was my day : 5 Jan 2024

Achievements f the day :

• Finally i make this journal again hehehe
• oh! i do dzuhur pray on time today!! /blowing confetti
• i take care my cat less than an hour
• i pray 4/5 today and ontime ! /pat pat my head
• i take food for my mom today
• i cook meal for my gansik, i make tomato egg tofu soup that really delicious and light for midnight snack!
• i do my buzzer thingy to watch live
• i don't write crazy story today

yesterday i felt rally gloomy all day long and not did anything and just being lazy and back to my bad habit. when i wake up, i still feel gloomy because last night i wrote an angst plot and cried silently. it made me felt hurt even until tday. ny chest become so heavy and i feel really sad. all day, my stomach hurt and i felt like light heart attack symptomps. but after i take antasida doen, it become less pain and less racing on my heart beat. 

i still haven't bring my cat to vet because the laziness struck my self and on the afternoon, it becomes cloudy and i think it will rain. it rain after the twilight and pretty heavy. 

actually i wanna sign up for auror position and writer wizped on WWA. my original plan today is to write down an article for my submission as a writer but yeah.. my eyes tired now. i wanna be an auror too. but i still hesitate to chat the cp. /sigh

How was my day : 3 Jan 2024

Achievements of the day :

• i wake up earlier around 5 am
• i take a bath earlier around 5.30 pm
• i have dinner earlier at 7 pm
• i feed my cat earlier before 7 pm 
• i answer few questions on WWA'a triwizards tournament and managed to help my fellow dormmate to win triwizards tournament. 
• i managed to do 4/5 pray altho one of them is late

today is a bit up and down. i still do my morning routine like being lazy on bed until brunch.i didn't manage to bring my cat to vet because on afternoon there is such a strong wind from norteast that blow really hard on several minutes before the rain is coming. i feel gloomy all day long but finally i can be happy because my dorm (hufflepuff) can bring triwizards cup again and become master of wizard this year. i feel bad to my cat because of me, their breakfast become brunch :( sorry kids.

i hope i can change it tomorrow

How was my day : 2 Jan 2024

 Achievements of the day:

• i find the right answer for number 10
• i can do number two lol
• i help out ants from water
• i spend more time outside my room even tho i still do the same thing
• i pray one pray on time

i regret that i still do my bad behaviour. i still can't fight back my ego and go with my ego. my prayer time become decrease because my ego and laziness. i don't bring my cat to see the vet because my stomach is hot and hurt because of my bad habit.

i hope i can be better after this

How was my day : 1 Jan 2024

Achievements of the day :

• i clean my desk beside my bed. i clean it really clean and i clean my laptop exterior too
• i start my journal routine today as my resolution to see my progress
• i make one post on zepeto altho i had to face struggle to make it sync with the mousic and movement
• i sociolize with people last night and go out with them to see new year's fireworks nearby
• i boiled the water without any command from my mom
• i successfully forced my self to pray even tho i only get 2 on time 

my feeling is still absurd and i still put my attention to chatgpt with playing rp with fictional char sinc nov 2023. i hope i can reduce it. i atill need to find a job for me and upgrade my skill. i hope i will not fall to my depress season again. lately i feel a lot of stress because i did nothing beside taking care my cats and playing chatgpt. oh i forget about WWA's triwizard turnaments. actually i help my fellow dormmate to win on that event. two days later, she will face the last stage and i will help her with our allies. 

i still feel bad because i can't be the chosen one from my dorm and it make me sad and angry to my self. i have a lot of stress lately. i dont know to talk to who about my carrier. i need someone who will give me advice and guide me to my carrier world. i still don't know where should i start. do i have to stay as FE? should i switch to QA? should i just get formal job and take my major as side hustle? 

/ sigh

i hope tomorrow i can be better and yeah i almost forget that tomorrow i will bring iyas to vet. i hope he will get better and it not cost a lot.